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I yelled at the Christian outside [the clinic] and flipped him off. I was ashamed he knew what I had done. He told me Jesus loved me and I felt bad for flipping him off. I was surprised he said that to me in a loving way after he knew I murdered.
An IUD was inserted, which would later make me infertile for many many years. The doctors were angry I was screaming from the pain. No one followed up. There was no one to talk to. The cramps and blood were so bad I had to call the planned parenthood hotline and their response was that it was normal. I wore a diaper for a month....
I grew up non religious and even engaged in witchcraft.... I had to seek therapy following it, but I lived in a progressive town. She [the therapist] never once brought it up even though it was why I sought out help. I was already heavily medicated on high doses of anti depressants prior to this event. I slept all day and had no energy. I fostered puppies to make myself feel better.
Then I started getting off my medications. I met my husband online, and he was the first person i ever met who was a Christian. He listened to me with love about my abortion. It was the first time I ever got to admit the pain and regret to anyone I knew. All my friends and family were pro choice, and yet they never talked about it. It would mean admitting there’s a downside, hurt, and lack of choice if they ever let me talk about it....
I got my IUD out and realized my hormonal imbalance. I had awful skin and I lost my period for over 2 years. It made me desperate for a baby. I felt horrible about what I had done even though I was pressured....
The world hates the Christian God for being against abortion. So I ran to him. I knew nothing about Jesus. I prayed on a random night in January of 2022 and confessed and told him I would take the worst consequence for what I had done. I knew I deserved it. I told him to love my baby. And instantly my life changed. I received the Holy Spirit and got energy all of a sudden to work hard at my job and read the Bible. The Bible made sense. I read it daily and thought I was manic.
I began feeling inner peace for what I had done. I loved Jesus and wanted to know more. I found out he forgives. He gave me forgiveness and peace. I told him if I was infertile, I would accept those consequences because I wanted to own what I did even if my mom and ex wouldn’t. I wanted justice for my unborn baby....
I prayed everyday for my hormones and period to come back. One day it did…I had lost weight, taken medicines, did everything to be fertile again, and nothing worked. I let it go and continued my walk with Christ. I read the Bible daily even if it was just a quote. I knew everyone in my life would be weirded out I suddenly became a Christian. My husband didn’t make me do it or convince me. He planted seeds, but I did it after repenting. Repenting changed my life. Even if my circumstances were unfair, I wanted to take full responsibility for what was my part.
I found a beautiful church and just got married. I have cycles, signs of ovulation, and I trust God. I don’t know if he will give me a baby, and man I want one to redo my entire experience. How magical it would be to talk to Jesus through every week, and talk to Jesus about my baby’s sibling in heaven....
I have recently disclosed to everyone proudly that I am one and married in the church I gave my testimony. I shared about my abortion and they embraced me. Christian’s are the only people I can talk to about it. I got baptized, married, and I pray for my baby all the time.
Abortion hurt me forever. It wounded my physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I’m so glad to know Jesus after that event, but am so sad that happened. I forgive my mom, and she has no idea how I feel. I hope to share it openly one day, but most people I know are progressive. It’s crazy enough I even share my faith now. Baby steps….but my testimony is powerful.
I grieve my child daily. I feel peace from Jesus but the sadness never goes away, especially with the uncertainty of my fertility. I love Jesus, and I’m so glad I had a repentant heart. I still struggle with addiction to nicotine and overdrink sometimes, but I am off all medication. Every day gets better as I get closer to him. I want to do something to help unborn babies or be against abortion in some way someday. I understand the pain, and I loved finding your Instagram and Tik Tok....
We all know deep down inside the truth, and I’m so glad I humbled myself and found peace. Thank you for your page and for listening to my story.... Jesus makes it better, but there’s still so much work to do on me. I trust him and hope I can let go of my addictions.
I’m so glad I’m married now and not having pre-marital sex. I’m so glad to go to church. I’m so glad every day gets better. I want to be better for him because he forgave me and revealed himself to me. The effects from abortion are so hard to shake like smoking cigarettes or weed or drinking to cope. I pray for my fertility. I pray for my baby in heaven. Thank you for reading and creating this ministry."